yeyeah

I work at books-a-million now. That is golden.

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going to class and I don't even expect coach to be there. I woke up late today with my eyelids in complete rebellion. Off with their heads.

today.

"And this just feels like spinning plates
I'm living in cloud cuckoo land"

sooo...

nobody who signs up to run goes running. Sad day. Two people didn't come today. Roommate facebooked me from Turkey. Good day. Much fun today. Then after running I wasn't feeling too swell, but I was extremely hungry so I grabbed Matt and we went to taco bell. On the ground we found a letter while we were there. It was a crazy story that we couldn't understand, but it was incredibly odd. We read it over and over again and then tried to read it with Ben. Someone finally explained what it meant and we had a "wow" moment. Then I got all of my pictures off of my camera. Now I am sitting and procrastinating sleep oddly enough. feeling tired all day but now I don't feel like I can sleep easily. Oh well.

School

School is difficult to focus on right now. My classes are pretty unrelated to life with kickball 101, theory (?!?!!?!) 498, controversial conversations about things I don't believe 313, and history of backwater virginia 460. The one class that is meaningful where I am tutoring for ESL has not had a single show-up yet. Only one person has signed up for any appointments in the future.
I feel like I am half conscious half the time that I am halfway doing my work which makes for a whole lot of free time, procrastination, and apathy. I am fighting for joy in Christ. He has been good to me, but school is just difficult under all of these circumstances. I am supposed to be doing homework and preparation right now, but look at me sitting here and writing a post about who knows what.
Faithfulness in little things. I need.

Spring Break 2008

I went skydiving with Sarah and her roommates and friend on Saturday. On Sunday I went to church, took a hike, and returned to Chattanooga. Monday was spent catching up with my pastors from home and spending time with my family. Today I am up at my mom's house reading and waiting for everyone to get home so that we can go eat some mongolian bbq. Tomorrow - church and East Brainerd friends. Thursday with the dad, aquarium maybe? friday or saturday going to the circus I hope. I get to see my baby niece on saturday as well. Good times. That is spring break. Much needed.
Skydiving was an amazing experience. I got to see all of the land at 12,000 feet and balance on a step outside of an airplane and do a barrel roll (got sick from it) and parachute to safety.
I think I will actually be ready and energized to go back to school, work hard, and head toward the summer now.

grace for the moment

Lately I have realized that I need to wake up each morning praying for grace for that day to make it through. Today I realized that I need to pray for grace for each action and each moment. I needed God to help me stand up from lying down on the ground after lunch and staring at the ceiling. I needed him to help me get ready. I needed him to help me stop dragging my feet on my way to work. God is good and I praise him for his glorious grace.
Today has been hard. There is no other way to put it. It was difficult to pay attention or even sit through my classes. I had to get up and leave once. I am tired, but I pray for energy. I am sad, but I pray for joy. I am drained, but I pray that I can pour out. God will hold me up against the flood. I love him and am thankful for that.
I am going to Memphis tonight and I am excited about that. It will be a good time away and I think it will be refreshing. I am dressed up, which is more frequent now but still quite infrequent. My shoes each have a blue spot of paint on them from guatemala almost four years ago. Some things never change.